I am not a good friends as i rarely call and arrange any meeting with friends~

There are more and more people that i haven't met for ages ~ Sometime i would like to meet them again. However, mostly the feeling of bothering would rise in my heart so i hesitate and give up~ It turns out that i would never see them again even we live in the same city ~ When the chances come, the feeling of friends in between would fade out~ Eventually, it doesn't really matter for meeting again ~

I am just thinking something these days that maybe i need a dramatic change in my life. I wonder i can be a stable person or not ~